Saturday, January 12, 2013

Seriously, nothing to say.

Oh this hot weather is KILLING ME (note: slight exaggeration).  I have been reduced to this sweaty puddle of lady.  I know you people who are experiencing the 44+ degree temps, might tell me to GO GET STUFFED with the 35 we will be experiencing today, but the Summer average for Armidale is SUPPOSED TO BE ABOUT 28 with daily afternoon storms to cool it down to enable sleep.  Which is nice and managable, BUT WE HAVE NOT SEEN AT ALL THIS YEAR.

Anyway, we used to live in a bushfire area in te Dandenong Ranges and it's not quite the same risk here, so I feel for anyone who is in a danger area, it's horribly scary.  I hope you are ok, and are seated somewhere nice and quiet, with a nice breeze and a long island iced tea.  (JUST LIKE I AM, I am not in my pjs, with toothpaste all over my face and neck because an 18 month old insisted on brushing my teeth, and waiting in anticpation the change of a poo nappy within the next few minutes).

Other than maintaining my fancy lifestyle, I am just lazing around, it's too hot to do anything (the hottest time of the day here is like from 3-7pm, so EVENING EXERCISE AND CHILDREN SLEEPING is impossible), planning a trip to the pool today and wondering what madness I agreed to with a winery lunch with others tomorrow.  I am having an internal freak out already as Rubes is due to start school in 2014, which just seems ridiculous and I am panicking about picking the right school (we are zoned for the worst school in the area, so I am trying to work some magic and get her into somewhere else).

Have I ever mentioned that I may infact be a highly strung individual?  No?  Ok.

Sunday, January 06, 2013

A serious little side thought.

I sometimes read MamaMia.  Sometimes I like it, sometimes I don't (I think I am possibly more of a Jezebel lady, who I know oft influences some of the MM posts), but they recently featured this video.

Which is awesome and sad and thought provoking (worth a watch).  I have this poster on my desk at work from Roald Dahl's book The Twits:

And it's TRUE, and it's something I think about a lot.  I think I have written before that I come from a hyper-critical parent who never had a nice thing to say about anyone, and it's a hard habit and mould to break.  But I have also over the years had the realisation that the ugliness of such a personality - a person who is compelled to say nasty things about other people and put them down, is just reflecting the pain, dissatisfaction and disappointment that colours their own existence.

And it is a choice not to be like that.

Friday, January 04, 2013

2012... it was the year that was the year of stuff

I am not a big resolution maker.

But I have been thinking a lot about the end of last year in this now new year, like I said before, everyone I know had a pretty trying 2012, and there is a lot of hope for the new year.  Hope is nice.  I have been instead gathering in my head all the stuff from this year that is significant or otherwise.


We added to the family with another dog!  This is Suki with Georgie, she is a German Shepherd/Husky cross (this photo entitled George's mini-me was taken in JUNE, Suki is now small pony size, possibly double the size of George who is a big dog).  She is big and soft-hairy and we were given her when she was 6 weeks old.

We have been lucky with all our animals, she has a lovely nature, is gentle with kids and happy to chill with the other animals.  It's also weird having an obedient dog who comes when called.

Last year I changed my idea of what a friend looks like.  So we moved to a new place (Armidale, NSW with a population of about 27,000) at the end of 2011, so it has been our first year in our new home.  I was desperately lonely for adult company and I would jump on DrMr when he got home and grilled him about all aspects of his day.  I would strike up conversations with random drunk, crazy people in line with the post office.  Small towns are famous for being a bit cliquey with newcomers and Armidale is no different.  But... I made new friends, I swallowed my pride, put myself out there and pulled people into my circle who I wouldn't have necessarily connected with before - and I would have missed out on that in Melbourne.  GOSH, LOOK AT THIS NEWFOUND MATURITY.

I grew my hair long.  Which is weird as I have always been a short haired lady.  I also discovered that my hair at the roots is so silvery grey now, that I look like a freaking tinsely Christmas ornament.

I lost my fear of bugs, spiders, snakes.  Except for these crazy pink moths who seem to mate once a year and absolutely covered our windows one night, it was this horrendous cannibal sexing bug orgy.  DISGUSTING.

I found a job that I finally REALLY like.  I wake up in the morning and am happy to go to work.  Gosh it makes a big difference, doesn't it?

I sort of fell into a community.  I am and have always been a city girl.  I RELISH anonymity which does not happen in a small town.  In the city, I would feel uncomfortable in a cafe if they knew how I liked my coffee.  BUT HERE, if I go to the supermarket and don't see 4 people I know, it's EXTREMELY ODD.... and, and... I kind of like it.  Just a little bit.  But people in this town can not drive and I do want to punch them all in the face when they do not know how to behave when they find themselves AT A ROUNDABOUT.

We thought we would have a third baby and then we all got gastro and thought again about not having a third baby.

I had a baby that turned 1 (but this pic is just from a few days ago!)

And a big girl turn 4.

So for 2013, I kind of just want to find some quiet in my head, which can be a noisy place at times.  I want to start feeling more settled here, relax more and nourish all my relationships.

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

Hello World

Happy New Year Blogland!

Man.  I needed a blog break.  I have been feeling very jaded with the world of blogging.  Apart from Georgie Love (ARGH 7 years) I have been blogging for very much well over 12 years and it has changed a lot.  And I have obviously changed a lot, as has my life.  But in the past 2 years, blogging HAS. CHANGED.  and I was super uncomfortable about it, so decided to put it aside some what and concentrate on the real world happenings and see how I felt.  However, clearly it is a New Year and I LIKE blogging, and I have had so many things I have wanted to talk about, but I would sit down, read all these sponsored blogs and arguments and trolls and nastiness, that I just would sit down and exhale and all the words would escape me like a balloon.  So I would close the laptop, play with the kids, have a nap or read something else instead.

But, I reiterate, it is a new year and I have to put the things that are flittering around my brain somewhere.  Life has changed, and people have changed and the whole online community has changed and for better or worse, I don't think I have.  There are certainly things I would like to change about my life for 2013, but I am essentially - the same.  Keep on keeping on.

2012 overall from what I read of my friends (and me), was a shit year.  Or a tough year.  For me - it was an odd year, the word I feel right now is UNCOMFORTABLE, a lot of uncomfortable change required, or uncomfortable realisations.  I went from being a frustrated stay-at-home parent, to a part-time working parent to feeling a very content full time working parent.  I found a job that I REALLY enjoy and makes me happy, and I made a new network in Armidale, some new friends and finding my feet (sort of) in a new town, and trying to get over the guilt that comes with being a working parent.  You know what, the kids are ok.  The kids are better than ok.